There needs to be
more words to describe some feelings. Like some random forwards about a single
German word or Japanese word describing a feeling that can only be expressed in
a sentence in English and still be incomplete.
Like what do you
call that feeling that comes every time I see the sky darkening, silence
descending, with occasional cries of a bird, a cold breeze, announcing impending
rain? It used to be one distinct
feeling, but now with aftermath of what happened in Kerala, I am not sure if it
will remain the same. When it just sprinkled the other day, my wife was
commenting that now every time there is a mention of rain, it will remind of Ms
Rita’s front room that leaks.
Or the feeling of
tightening in the chest of not being able to do anything, not feeling like
doing anything, feeling like nothing is worth doing and all is in vain? That
cloak of doom should be shaken with a coffee, sharing the wordly worries and
have a good laugh with a friend.
Or the feeling of
being accused of something and instead of arguing and making it worse, keeping
silent, fully knowing that it is quite the opposite and the karma will catch up
and reward me later.
Or the feeling of
not telling someone about something knowing that it will hurt them, but at the
same time not able to do much to prevent it from happening.
Or the feeling of
embarking on something not knowing the path, not knowing whether it will
succeed, not knowing answers to all the questions, but all the while feeling
like it may lead to something wonderful or it may be a spectacular failure.
I should be able to
say – yes, I am feeling “this” now, rather than the whole sentences above.
